If only you let me get that job, If only they saw my potential, If only they had lived one day longer, If only they would buy me that gadget, If only I would get a raise, If only…
The statements that we find ourselves swearing against – “If only…, I will/would”. We surmount all our hope and faith in this one thing at a particular time. Then when it goes through, we are elated beyond words. So excited, our faith is once again restored because something has been done for us. We now believe that anything can happen. Anything is possible. We have seen and we believe – albeit for a little while, till we need our next fix.
But our only issue is that we shall soon ‘need’ something else, and need it ‘badly’. Even more that the previous one. This time we shall plead and cajole, even attempting to twist the arm of the one that we do not see – however, this time round, nothing happens. Instead of the bold confidence that came with the past receiving, your back now stoops and ashes are on your head, you mourn and wail about how no one care, pssh! there is no God. If there was one, he would have let: the promotion pass me by, my best friend die, hunger and famine, pot holes in the roads, senseless war & terrorist attacks.
Oh, this God that is supposed to be almighty, yet fit our own individual definitions of who he is, this one that we have boxed and said – if he were God he would be good – where good means (*insert your definition*). How small he is.
Oh how puny your little mind to believe that because you have chosen to turn your back on Him, He is no longer God, because you curse the very bane of his existence – he trembles with fear in the far corner of heaven, because you reject His gift of Love – he will slowly fade away into the distant past.
If you think you can define your GOD and even go further to box him – then he isn’t that awesome, great & magnificent, now is he?